Sometimes Re-Boyfriend and I hug each other and (I don’t even know who started this) one of us will say “I don’t know what I’m going to do with all this love!” This is either sweet or nauseating, depending on your vantage point, but it is also, at least for me, true. I love him so much that the love is like a physical entity and I literally don’t know what to do with it.
I am beginning to think this is what people mean when they say things like “I’m overflowing with joy,” or “I’m bursting with love.” I’m not big enough for all this. One day my love is going to emerge forcefully from my stomach and parade around my desk. Until then I’m going to feel unsettled and scared.
This is not to say that Re-Boyfriend is never passive-aggressive. And he is also a snorer, and a person who freakishly wants to do laundry with me.
But I love him way too much and it is making me very uncomfortable.
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Awhh And just in time for Valentine's Day too!
Congratulations!
I know what you mean. sometime i can't look at my boyfriend because it literally hurts to see him because i get filled with so much lovin'. so i close my eyes. :)-
That is, as I tell my couple friends that display affection, "pukey cute."
Awww.
CB - it's a GOOD thing!!! Go with it!
Just wait till you start doing laundry together!
A) You started saying it or you wouldn't have said you didn't remember - you'd just blame him for it. Talk about passive-aggressive.
B) Remember when he banged the Asian neighbor? Wasn't that fun? Don't you just LOVE him?
Ha ha.. the in tender moments the hubby blurts out "Aint that f%&king precious..."
The first step is to admit there is a...
Just kidding
Awww....
I know you didn't mean it as aw, but still, aw.
And the last anonymous has never been in anything resembling a real relationship.
Try throwing in an "I love you so much it makes me sick" every now and again, just to keep him on his toes.
How about, "I love you so much I could shit a brick." Now doesn't that warm the cockles of your heart?
BTW, what is a "cockle"?
http://www.worldwidewords.org/qa/qa-coc2.htm
this explains it coffey ;-)
Cockles are a type of bivalve mollusc, once a staple part of the diet for many British people (you may recall that Sweet Molly Malone once wheeled her wheelbarrow through Dublin’s fair city, crying “cockles and mussels, alive, alive oh!”). They are frequently heart-shaped (their formal zoological genus was at one time Cardium, of the heart), with ribbed shells
After this piece appeared in the Newsletter, James Woodfield pointed out that there is another possible explanation. In medieval Latin, the ventricles of the heart were at times called cochleae cordis, where the second word is an inflected form of cor, heart. Those unversed in Latin could have misinterpreted cochleae as cockles, or it might have started out as a university in-joke. Oddly, cochlea in Latin is the word for a snail (from the shape of the ventricles — it’s also the name given to the spiral cavity of the inner ear), so if this story is right we should really be speaking of warming the snails of one’s heart.
This doesn't speak well of me...I like "Crazy Company Bitch" more than I like "Normal Company Bitch"
I'm sorry.
I agree with the 'awww' group of comments. It's so nice to feel that way about somebody, even if it's also a bit scary.
I recognize the feeling. In my case it's usually like a huge bubble of white light (at least somehow it feels that way) trying to get out.
A toast on love!
cb
I do hope dear, that you are not confusing indigestion with love...
fairsCaPe
What's it liked to be hugged in a relationship? God... it's been so long on this end I've forgotten... such is life I guess... enjoy that feeling CB :-)
Mercurior, thanks! I can see clearly now. Uh! Are a college professor or something? I would have been just as happpy if you had said, "It's a type of mussle, dumb ass." Now I really feel like one. But it was interesting to read your answer and I went to the suggested web site, too.
i understand -- i felt that way about my fiance -- after 30 years of being very self-sufficient, it has been scary, but i am embracing it and we are getting married in a month and a half. although still overwhelming, it is the most amazing thing ever. embrace the love!
Under my BF's arm is the safest place in the world. I don't tell him that, much. But sometimes it just kind of pops out, like a fart that I can't take back. And he's aleady smelt it.
nauseating.
Does Re-BF read this blog? He must've put you in a guilt trip after the last couple of posts...
Are you pregnant?
wait a minute... didn't you start this blog to vent because he cheated on you?
You may have forgiven RB, but some of your readers haven't!
I know exactly what you mean. I love WSOPBf so much that I actually ache for him when he's away.
i am a polyglot, and polymath, nah your not dumb, coffey, i just have a near photographic memory, and i have plenty of time ;-)
Sorry, but... aaaccckk!
I use my overflow-love to boil the kettle.
i spent a while trying to think of something mean/ funny to say but everything just sounded like i was a frigid bitch. but i am kind of a frigid bitch so at least i got this comment to be all about me. congrats on finding love blah blah blah whatever.
i have done sickly sweet things when i am with my fiancee, i say if i was any more sickly sweet, i would have diabetes...or massive tooth decay..
still.. its good fun..
Oh darlin - I'm with you!
congrats. doesnt it feel wonderful?
Yeah, sometimes I say "you're my favorite."
Mercurior, sorry to hear you are polyglot and polymath. Have you tried lotions, or have you seen a doctor about that? My simple polychotomic mind can seem to pull it all together to advise you on what to do. Perhaps if I could think of a word in another language it might help you to understand your problem. Or do you know the word already?
Sometimes Bubba and I say stuff that is too cutesy for the public ear. That is when I tell him that we can never break up. Because I'd be horrified if people knew the things we said.
Or that we talk about our poo's.
See, it's too much.
How long have you been dating re-boyfriend (at least for the second go around)?? It seems like it's been over a year. If so, why do you still call him "re-boyfriend" and not just "boyfriend". I think it's cute, but it seems like you still need your space.
My friend just sent me an email saying, and i quote: "Also, as much as it pains me to say this, you and -------- are so cute together. Slightly nauseating, but you guys seem really happy, and I'm super happy for you guys!"
Similar to you and RB, my BF and I have had a VERY interesting path to official couple-dom and neither of us know how the hell we've made it work. I still have a few friends who wish I were single for all of my "stories."
But fuck it, I'm actually going to let myself go with this because it feels that good to be with him, and trust me, it's not easy for me to say that. Does this mean I'm growing up?
Love your blog - I'm happy for you and RB!
It's probably just another side effect of the birth control. If not, there's no need to let it make you uncomfortable, it'll go away after you've lived together long enough. ;)
This, too, shall pass. Ah, youth.
i know exactly how you feel.
but i'd just hug him tighter and tighter until he protests:
"baby, i love you too but i gotta breathe"
cheers to love! :)
btw, been enjoying your blog for quite some time and i guess this is my first time leaving a comment! my bad :D
I thought I was in love once too. Turns out it was acid reflux.
Kidding. It's a great feeling!
Just started reading your blog - I'm hooked.
wowI thought i was reading the wrong blog for a moment...i guess u actually do love re. But..i still like it when ur more "real" about ur relationship..i like to hear more of the negative...not this "petting" type of post. I'm kinda dissapointed...
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